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2/7/09 12:12 pm - from drea

Comment on this entry and I will tell you a song that makes me think of you within 24 hours.

Repost this meme, and you can do the same to me

10/23/08 03:02 am - loveshack.org

I was browsing relationship forums.Found loveshack.or.

I would advise staying far,far away.It was full of men ranting about how they hate the fact that their girlfriends had sex with xamount of folks in their pasts.
These same men(literally,same posts!) were then talking about how they obsessed about the size of the gf's exes cocks,how they %^&^*ed her,when where in what position,and whether or not some of the guys were hook-ups and how could she share such a sacred part of her body with just anyone and how now they feel duped because they are dating a slut.

I am not kidding.That is exactly what these freaks are posting.And everyone,EVERYONE,is agreeing with them
My monster ex could have written one of those posts,I actually checked the date to see what year it was posted.He used to say those same horrible things to me.

Who are these people,and why do they think that anyone's sexual experiences in any way belonged to them?
These men didn't care about their girls' health,mental or physical,or what risks she could have let herself in for.They were upset angry outraged because THEY felt like what SHE owned in HER past reflected on THEM!

This man typed out"I love her but I can't get over how many guys she's %^&*ed and she's so shy in bed and won't suck my dick yet she's $%^&ed all these $%^&%^-$%^&*&^?!"



The point is that they felt she had damaged THEM and given away THEIR peice of ass before they got to her.They treat these women like property.

The whole forum has a section on how to rig the computer to record all the keys typed but not have it be detected(keylock?Keyload,something like that) and how to tell if they were cheating and how to basically spy on them.

My god,this made me sad. Wtf,highschool much?

On top of a ridiculous myspace exchange earlier today that I am still fucking pissed and incredulous over,this is just too much.

I think I might go play on my parenting board for a while and see who's kids are walking now...the change will do me good. ...siigh...so will a smoke

10/19/08 08:08 am - self-indulgent whine and sickening self-pity.For the moment

Sometimes I feel like I've wasted my life..I'm 26 now and have yet to accomplish anything that most folks do in their late teens and/or early twenties because I messed up so badly or was spending time cleaning up those messes.
I don't know if anyone out there can seriousley relate to those experiences.
It's so crazy to me..I remember random events from being a two-year-old but the years when I should have been going to college and partying and gaining important career experience and just growing up are all a blur, because I never did what I should have done and now it's just too late to get that time back.
I have to jump ahead to being here and scramble to catch up to what are the simple basics for most people,and I hate facing this.Sometimes I'm so unhappy about wasted time in the past that I waste time in the present and it only adds to my shame.

This is just one of those hours' where I wish to god I had a second chance to do my life over again.Why was I so foolish,why didn't I take control of myself and just do what had to be done,no matter how unpleasant it was?Why didn't I push myself to actually see where my potential ended,instead of just accepting the minimum effort to get by?Where was my head?

I know I need to move on,and forgive myself for letting myself down, but in this hour at 8:15 am I'm just grieving for what could have been.Who I could have been.
Is there some purpose I can get from this,somehow I can just look at this objectivley and say,"ok,here's why I'm so sad right now,hwere's where I fucked up,here's what I will do NOW so I'm not in the same boat in four years?", sure there is.
But I still have to honestly face the grief before I can let go.This wasn't how I thought my life would be.
I thought I'd be married by now,have a kid or two,a happy relationship with my SO and a good career to go back to when the kids started school.Now I think I will never have those things.
I just took it for granted that this would all fall into my lap with no effort on my part,cuz that's what happen to little girtls when they grow up,right?They get married and have babies,right? Like the earth turns.I never realized how much impact the choices I made day by day would add up year by year.
And now once again I'm cleaning up my own messes instead of moving on with my life.

Where,oh where,do I begin,to get to where I want to be?

10/19/08 03:58 am

Waiting...waiting...waiting...waiting....waiting...waiting....waiting....waiting...waiting....waiting....waiting...waiting....waiting....waiting...waiting....waiting....waiting....waiting....

8/23/08 04:25 pm

$200 in-vitro? Docs to offer procedure in Africa
1 in 3 women are unable to have children, often ostracized, officials say
updated 3:42 p.m. ET, Mon., July. 7, 2008
BARCELONA, Spain - Doctors are getting ready to introduce a cheap in-vitro fertilization procedure across Africa, where women often are ostracized as witches or social outcasts if they cannot have children, officials said Monday.

Millions of dollars go into family planning projects and condom distribution to prevent pregnancies in Africa, but experts said that more than 30 percent of women on the continent are unable to have children. An estimated 80 million people in developing countries are infertile worldwide.

"Infertility is taboo in Africa," said Willem Ombelet, head of a task force at the European Society of Human Reproduction and Embryology looking into infertility in developing countries. "Nobody has paid attention to this issue, but it is a huge problem and we need to do something."
At a media briefing at the society's annual conference in Barcelona, Ombelet said that he and colleagues were deciding in which countries to test the new procedure.

A small number of women already have been treated in Khartoum, Sudan, and other projects are expected to start soon in South Africa and Tanzania.

Lower cost, but also lower success rate
The cheap version of IVF costs less than $200. Standard IVF treatments in the West cost up to $10,000.

Instead of using expensive lab equipment and medicines, experts said cheaper options could also work. For instance, rather than using an expensive incubator to create an embryo, Ombelet said that a water bath could be used in Africa.

Less expensive medicines also would effectively stimulate women's ovaries to produce more eggs, and costs could be further cut by using cheaper needles and catheters.

But because fewer eggs would be produced by using the cheaper drugs, the success rate would also be lower. In developed countries, IVF is usually successful in about 20 percent of cases. But in Africa, Ombelet estimates it would probably be about 15 percent.

The inexpensive procedure has been used on cows and a small number of women. Researchers in the United States are working on developing an even cheaper IVF procedure that might be more effective.

Despite dozens of other health priorities — from AIDS to pneumonia to malaria — experts said it was worthwhile to introduce a cheap version of IVF.

Some women labeled as witches
In Africa, where infertility is more common than in the West, women often suffer the problem after complications from unsafe deliveries, abortions or infections.

"The cost of being infertile in Africa is much greater than in the West," said Oluwole Akande, an emeritus professor of obstetrics and gynecology at the University of Ibadan, Nigeria. Akande acknowledged the price of the procedure would still be available only to Africa's upper and middle classes.

He said that in many parts of Africa women who are unable to have children become social outcasts, are labelled as witches, and in extreme cases, are even driven to suicide.

Sembuya Rita, an infertility activist from Uganda, said it was essential for public health officials to address the issue. "It's a fundamental right for every person to have a child," she said.

Rita said that infertile women often were economically disadvantaged as their husbands left them for other women and were cut out of family inheritances.

Experts said that even if millions of women were treated with low-cost IVF, it would only result in a one to two percent boost in the overall population.
But with limited funds for public health, officials admitted it would be a tough sell.

"It's definitely going to be viewed as a lower priority," said Dr. Sheryl Vanderpoel, a reproductive health expert at the World Health Organization.

WHO has traditionally been focused on family planning and preventing sexually transmitted diseases rather than helping solve infertility problems.

Vanderpoel said that might start to change once it was clear that low-cost solutions were possible.

"If you remove the fixed costs, it is actually not that expensive to create an embryo in a dish," she said. "This doesn't come with all the bells and whistles, but it works."





Greeeeaaaat...like the third world needs more people in it.There are plenty of orphaned children in Africa who need homes,so why won't these people adopt instead?Plus,this country has much more important issues to deal with,and they are wasting time and money on this???

On another note,It's sad that childless women are outcasted here.If a wife depends on her marriage for her survival,I can see where she would be desparate enough to take drastic measures so as not to be divorced.

Drastic measures like ,say,undergoing an IVF procedure where the embryos are grown in a BATHTUB,as opposed to a sterile laboratory environment(read article).
Goddamn.Lately,general humanity and it's priorities seem even more baffling,trivial,or hateful than usual.



On top of that,LeRoi Moore died this week.Shit,what does this mean for DMB?



AAnnnnd, Trooper didn't make it ...the 8week old kitten had internal injuries too small to detect,and after undergoing and surviving an operation to pin his tiny bones back together,he must have just said,"Fuck this,I've had enough."
So much trauma for a tiny baby cat that didn't even weigh two pounds when he was resued after some evil piece of walking pollution
chucked him from a moving car.

There are some people that should have been drowned at birth or aborted.That guy,and the man in Chesapeake arrested for 3 counts of animal cruelty today are just two out of a billion examples.

7/24/08 05:01 am - stupid bitches

I am so hot under the collar I have to open my mouth and get this out of my system!I was just browsing an internet forum for women trying to concieve.

I got bored fast,then after I saw this one chick post,I got OUTRAGED!
This bitch goes on and on about how her best friend has had two miscarriages,and how the dr said she and her husband can't make a healthy baby.Now she wants to go in-vitro,and this woman is posting on the internet,asking for donations from perfect strangers so she can go get inseminated,cuz she "really wants a baby"...

If you and Hubby aren't healthy enough to have a baby naturally,why the fuck don't you take a goddamn hint and go adopt one of the hundreds of children out there that need some goddamn parents!!!! Stupid selfish fucking bitch!

4/27/08 01:08 am

Sick.I'm sick.I hate being sick!

4/26/08 03:14 am - PUT GIRAFFES IN THE AIR!

4/26/08 01:51 am

I hate mixed messages.

4/26/08 12:21 am

Sometimes the sadness stays.But I know I will be okay.This may be a dark time for me right now,but Ive been here before.I know things are going to be okay.I just wish I didn't have to deal with this.Tomarrow I might feel better.Who knows?

4/18/08 08:16 pm - wooo

Date?Maybe. Hoooooo boy..I suck at these things.

What's going to happen?I hate not knowing everything...people are such variables!

But he's cute...and it's my move.

Susie has had a busy,busy day:-)

4/2/08 10:20 am

Third day no sleep.This isn't much fun.Dance later.Much later.

3/26/08 10:47 am

Things are good."Work" is going well.I am going down to negotiate an extra shift,should be no problem.Might go to Richmond this weekend,we shall see.Going to the gym a lot,nothing really more to add.Seeing new counselor,she is awesome,very intuitive and non-judgemental(hey,ONE of needs to not be!)Getting a bit lonesome,need to socialize,I guess.I haven't gone out and had a good time for a while.Now that it's getting warm outside,who knows?

peace

3/17/08 05:47 pm - for the love of it.Reminds me of that 3-day party I once threw.

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LJ House Party by fayray
Username
The DJricojc
The Drunkchristfucked
The Hottiehitthepavement
The Wallflowerinqbus
The Playerhotpinkzombie
The Gamblernazareth_elliot
The Horny Onenocturnal_fears
The Crasheroutbreed
The Love Interestacid_tearsx3x
How many people got laid68
Chances the party will be a sucess
83%

1/29/08 06:11 am - morose,tired,sleepless

I'm cynical.I admit it.I was watching a "Unfaithful,"and I started a mental rant.It goes like this:

so what ,its just sex,right?And whats sex,anyway?Two bodies fucking.Big (fucking) deal.Sex is easy.One dick is as good as another.One pussy is the same as another. Generally,One man moves like another.Basic mechanics are the same in every race,culture,.So why does everyone call sex "being intimate"? Its probably the least intimate thing you can do.Its replaceable.It's whatever.No one is really special in the procreational scheme of things,are they?

And its really,really sad.It's the Big Lie.Loving husbands and fathers do cheat.Maybe it doesnt mean that they dont love their wives.Maybe men compartmentalize better than women.Monogamy is supposed to be a cultural imposition,not the natural inclinations of the species.So what does it all mean?

1/8/08 03:51 am - My reaction to a post-pregnancy site for photographs

I have friend who have children..most of them do now,actually..they all seem to have bounced back nicely, and I think theylook adorable.It makes me sad to read posts by women about how they cry when looking at pre-preggo pics of themselves.


Then these online ladies in some forum I visited posted pictures of their bellies and I thought they looked nasty as hell.And everyone is posting messages saying "noooo your g0rgeus an u made a MIRACLE an u look like a REAL WOMEN "(their spelling ,not mine).And of course the post-preggo belly shots are still horrifying(I've never seen a navel ring sag like that before) but you can understand why they tell each other that they still got it.It's hard enough to face the reality of the disfigurement without other people preaching to your choir.

12/31/07 03:49 pm - I need a piercer

Can anyone recommend a competent,knowledgeable piercer in Virginia Beach?

11/12/07 08:58 pm

Things are okay.Ive been a little bored, but unwilling to make any phone calls.This is my hibernation phase.As lonely as it can be,I personally relish the cold and the darkness.It gives me a feeling of rest,of peace that summer just doesn't have.This is milk for the soul,a constant, a continuity that follows every summer of my life.It's my own personal nature.It's a healing time for me. And it makes me feel so strong inside.Like I know something no one else knows,and have something no one else has.It's a heady feeling.I just need to remember to let people know I love them,so I don't come to in spring,to find myself alone.O I'm committed to biweekly updates,just for the purpose of communication.

11/4/07 11:58 pm - why not






10/31/07 05:43 pm - All Hallow's Eve

Happy Halloween to all,be safe and guard your tongues.Be especially careful what you wish for tonight.Do no intentional harm. Don't be too careful. Have fun.HAHAHAHAHAQHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAAA!
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